Swinburne Drama Club Dinner

It was tons of fun! Almost everyone was there including him . . . It was just a normal gathering dinner but I felt like dressing up because of him...At first I was just talking to the other drama people and he just sat there...In the end, I struck up a conversation with him on sisha because he and a few guys ordered one...I've never tried it before and I actually tried it on friday!!! OMG! I remembered that Michelle said that it was high when you try sisha but I didn't feel a thing...choked on the first breath tho...kinda inhaled a little. There was a new mouth piece and he say "送给你" and i was like..."oh...why??" He said 第一次吸这个嘛... and i laughed and said ouukayy... Then after the 1st bottle was done, he went off to sit with the other members and I sat alone for awhile...

After some time, he ordered another one and he say we (there were others) share. We said ok and when it came, we took turns...when he does it he really exhales a lot of smoke! Like a dragon! LOL...and I tried to do it too...I guess I passed for a first timer and he said 你吸这个第几次了?Then I said 第一次... He say 今天喔... So I answered 应该五六次吧... because I thought he meant how many times did I suck on that thing the 1st bottle. He thought I tried it alot of times already...Then I say 没有啦!十八年第一次啊!! He say骗人!!不相信...这么Pro... It was so funny...XD And after the 2nd puff on the 2nd bottle, I did feel light headed and a lil high...and after I said that, he kept on asking if I was OK...Then he say, cham liao, you're addicted to it already...and he also said 今晚你不会睡了...and I was like...What?!明天不会醒来学书就是你害的了... I didnt keep the mouth piece and I left it on the table and when he saw it he say 你没有收起来...I just said Oh...and I said I'll need to frame it up cz this was my first time using a shisha...and he laughed....Honestly...even though that mouth piece wasn't anything special, I felt kinda happy when he said that.....=) Even if things won't turn out the way I hope it will...I'm still gonna be happy(I hope) every time I see his smile... Hope that I can go KL with the gang end of next year...Hope that he's going too..=)

Oh, and did I mention that I took a video of him puffing smoke from his mouth? I can't stop smiling every time I watch the video. LOL...

Is it just another crush?

I don't know how to put this in words but he's the kind of guy that makes me wanna know more about him...I first saw him during the production rehearsal and I did think he was kinda cute...But I didn't even know his name... Quite a lot of things have happened since then but...I think we are still just 2 people who know each other by their faces and names but to be called as friends...Its still way too early. I really hope that he would be going this Friday and I get more chances to talk to him. But I guess in the end, I'll have to leave everything to God...

I don't know how to be sure that it's just more than a crush...but i think I'll know it when I know it. Haha...Im not really making sense right now...I just wanna see him right now. Don't ask me why. Just have the urge to. =.=lll I think I'm going crazy.

あああああああ！！！！！！！

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Remember the time I blogged about the breaking class being cancelled? And I got so pissed that I din go the following week...Then, the week after that, it was that time of the month so I didn't go. They are performing 4 the drama production and I would never have known about it if I wasn't dragged in at the last minute by Jerome to be a backup dancer 4 the production. I saw them practicing in the lobby at B block...Honestly...I was feeling a little left out. But I tried not to care and I told myself that it was a good thing because I'm helping the drama club...

Yesterday...we had practice the whole day in Swinburne and dance club was there to do their routine on stage...I have to admit that they were pretty good. And there was a girl who just joined this SDC this semester and she is a great dancer. Hew (the drama club president & former SDC member) asked Jude(my master) who was the girl and if she was new? Jude said yes and purposely said yes, she good hor? Better than somebody...(looks over to me) and I was kinda pissed so I said "YEAH, SHE'S GOOD!" Then I think Hew asked him why wasn't I in the routine, he said I HAO LIAN!!

I mean WTF?!?! They NEVER inform me if they had practice or not and now Im the one to blame? Well..I'm sorry for not being able to dance that well! I was almost in tears when I said "YEAH, SHE'S GOOD!" and I had to fumble in my bag and pretend to look for my apple! So sien...now I'm not sure if I should continue to go 4 breaking classes......Sien.

私は取り残されたと感じる...でもそれは私のせいです。。。

What to do?

Makes me wonder....

Had a chat with you, makes me wonder if what u said was true...But then even if it was true, u probably just meant it as a friend huh? Nothing more than that...I think actually I'm the pathetic one....Can't believe that I can actually BE this lame...Getting tired of all this....

Ugh...what came over me?! Probably its cause im alone in the car listening to 3mo songs....All well...All the best to the 2 of you. Pray that everything would turn out the way you want it to be...

Just a random fact, I LOVE USUI TAKUMI!!! So romantic!!!! XD (yeah yeah, lame, I know...)

Gotta go Now...TTFN!

あたしのきもち

I also duno want to write what today....everytime I am able to be online, I just run out of ideas...　I guess I miss you guys & girls too much liao...All my emotions would spill out when I see you people again....

At the least all of you are so much better than those I'm having. OMG. I'm taking nonsense. I guess im going crazy.... So many assignments and Im wasting my saturday evening blogging....not that blogging is a bad thing....but.....

Haiz....Gotta stop my habit of getting things done at the last minute....

だれか？　たせけてください！！！

Things that piss me off...

So...how do I put this in words? Thinking about it makes me angry though not as pissed as that time... On the 16th(Saturday), I messaged my master(in dance) and asked him if there was any lessons for that day. He replied yes. He sent another message asking me if I'm going at 12pm but I didn't see the message and I only replied "Sorry, no transport, maybe will go for breaking at 4pm..." at 2pm... he did not reply.

3.30pm
I asked my dad to drive me to Swinburne because there was a nail stuck in my car's tyre. When I reached, I didn't see anyone from the dance club. I went to the 6th and 8th floor but still I didn't see anyone. So, I messaged him again asking him where are you? He called and asked me to go to King Centre Da Lai. Unfortunately, I did not drive so I told him I'll wait for them at the uni. I sat down at G block and started facebooking.

4.++pm
He called again asking me if I see anyone there. I said no... and he said that Denis* cancelled the class and TYH will bring me back. & I was WTF??? If you cancel the class please TELL ME EARLIER!!!

1st time in the 18 years of my life I tiok "pang poi ki"(read in hokkien)...and my master actually asked me to forget about it. To me, something like this is not something I'd forget so easily. & he even told me that its something that is COMMON!!! WTH?!?! Please. I am a girl of my words. Once I say I'll do it, I'll do it. Even if I can't do it I'd try my best to get whatever it is done. If not, I would AT LEAST have had the courtesy to tell them I CANNOT DO IT EARLIER!!!

ZZZZ... Suddenly cancel as they like. In the end, my master was the one who apologized. Not him. He didn't even bother to do anything. I'm so disappointed. SIENZ.

I try my best to let go of this....No use getting angry at people who don't even bother. Zzzz.... Im cooling off now...GOD BLESS ME.....XD

Random Thoughts . . .

Here I am again . . .always wondering what to write every time I click the new post button. This time I think I'd actually have something to write about. It's raining here in Kuching and I guess the mood and atmosphere matches. Even the song I'm listening to fits!

Spent the whole night watching an anime named Special A. Hugh said it wasn't very nice and it was something about romance and stuff. Actually, I found it to be quite interesting. Haha. . . Most probably because my imaginations are able to run wild and free with the plot of the story. It was funny, romantic and above all fun.

Now I think I know why I love & enjoy watching anime. I guess its because the things that WILL NEVER happen in REAL life can happen when you're watching anime. Things always take an unexpected turn and seriously, some anime gals are so thickheaded they won't know that a person likes them even with a HUGE neon sign flashing at them.

Weird thing is, when I watch these kind of anime, I actually think and imagine how I'd feel if that was me. It makes me feel great sometimes. . . Other times I feel my heart throbbing as if the guy in the anime is telling me he likes me. . . yeah, I know it's lame. But it really takes away my worries and other things in life that bothers me.

I know I keep saying that "I'm single and loving it." but I think I'd actually like to be in love happily like those anime girls. Having a guy say things that you know that in reality would be lies but it makes you melt like chocolate. Things like that never happen where I live . . . and I mean where we all live generally.

It's all so hard to explain in words but I feel that the feelings I'm feeling are overflowing and if I don't tell someone I'm gonna burst. Even if no one would be reading this, I feel better already.
~ I mean, we only have one life, why waste it on frowning when smiling is always the good part of the day. For everything we do, we are only humans. ~ Russell Hee 24thmusic